yikes

I haven't posted in a week because I am really depressed and mad. I know I promised before and current pics and didn't do those either. Probably because I gained 5 pounds in a week and am up to 136-- which is more than when I even started this. I am really discouraged and am praying I am pregnant-- even though my husband is "fixed" and it would be a miracle of God, but at least it would explain all the weight gain and emotionalness!!! I don't know what happened. I don't think I ate that much worse than usual last week, although I did have a coke and hardly ever ever drink cokes... 5 pounds!!!! That's amazing....I am really sad. And my precious, oh so honest husband told me the weight gain was "extremely obvious" in my belly and hips. I am very thankful he told me that even though it hurt my heart a little. Then we had to eat fast food for dinner last night and he ate 2 double stackers from BK-- one of my fav's and I ate a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats, and was pissed the whole time!!! HA :)
My husband told me to start trying to burn 1000 calorie a day and not worry about toning right now, just to focus on cardio, so I will start that today... and I need to go get groceries today-- so only healthy stuff, blah.... I was talking to a lady at the gym yesterday and she was like being nice "oh, I am sure it's just water weight" and I said "no, I think it's spaghetti weight" and she said "you ate white pasta??" and had a little freak out on me and was like "no, no-- you can eat nothing white!" and went on to tell me to eat cabbage and onions and squash-- disgusting!!! Ok, so I sound like I am 10, but I really don't like vegetables except beans and corn and fried okra- does that count oh and the best vegetable, potatoes??? She gave me a mini-lecture about eating right....so, I am going to look up recipes til the kids get up and get healthy stuff to make healthy foods... Note the time 4:53am!!