UGH

I am so frustrated. Food really has a hold of me right now. It's like I am eating it just to spite myself and I don't know why. I am like, screw it, I am going to eat this cookie and just see what happens... EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN..... It started because I was at like 120, and even though I'd been working our hard, I got back up to 123... Now, I am sure I will weigh at least 126 in the morning, plus, this weekend coming up is the big date weekend, that I was supposed to be in tight shape for. UGH. I really want to get motivated to clean out the pantry and drink a gallon of water and eat only protein and veggies and no carbs and work my butt off this week... well, work my fat stomach off this week.